Games

I have not been good lately. And I know it. I'm sorry? But it was fun and still is that is.

We hung out yesterday. He told me stuff I can live without knowing. Haha. I was prodding and asking la. But you cant really blame me can you? I was curious; and as they always say curiosity kills the cat. And I think that the cat is now dead. Hmm..

It was kinda OTT if you ask me. But then again.. hmm it was ok I guess.

It got me thinking thou; Is this really all there is to it? Shouldn't there be something more?

And does looks really matter that much? Even the nicest guy I know condemned this girl because she is not as pretty as other girls.
I mean, of course i know that looks matter but for it to matter *that* much, isn't it a bit too much? Its very very unfair.

These both are intertwined of course. Not so pretty guys and girls don't get to play. Not so pretty guys and girls don't get as good opportunities too. But why?!
Blame it on human nature? Is that a good enough excuse?

Its like asking why people have sex before marriage I guess.

One thing I am worried about is;

Will I be able to pull back before things get way too far? Before I lose everything that I hold so dear?