Back to square 1?

Its a widely known fact that I have one very good guy friend who I talk about everything to. When I say everything I mean everything.

It is a known fact that lately I got to know 2 new guys; closer to guy 1 than guy 2 of course.

Yesterday, I ran into a problem; or rather, it has always been a problem I have been agonizing about. I thus turned to guy 1. I wanted a new opinion on this ongoing problem.

The answer he came up with was a very typical guy answer. A fresh one. It somehow made me believe that maybe, friends can still be purely friends without wanting something out of each other. He ended saying that I can always turn to him anytime and that he will always be there no matter what. I was sort of taken aback.

I know that I have friends who will be there no matter what. But to hear it is just so different. I know that I say that words are nothing, but there are times when words do a whole lot of good and I just fall in love with words again.

I have been having problems with a few people I call friends lately. One of them is a super long time friend and it has been a recurring problem and one of them is a new-ish friend. The new-ish friend is fake really and a wannabe. I am only friends with her because of another good friend. Give face la. But right now, I dont want to have anything to do with her. She is disgusting and urgh!!! I cannot believe I actually was nice to her.

Sigh, all these petty problems are really useless. This is why I like being with guy 1. He makes me feel like there is nothing to worry about anymore. My refuge for a while if you want to put it that way. He makes me feel that it doesn't matter for a while.

I know that everyone will have an opinion if they find out but really, if i am happy with him then leave me alone ok? I'll ask if I want your opinion.

I sometimes wish that I was a guy. Friends seems so much simpler.