Happy Tears?

I think that I finally know what it feels to like someone so much that it actually hurts.

Its funny? I dont know. Its throbbing; my heart. And suffocating me at the same time. I dont know how to explain.

Are these happy tears?
Or sad ones?

I'm in love with someone who isn't there.
Love?

Love.

I still dont get why its so hard.
I just want to be happy (:

There is really so much I wanna do.
Why?
Because I want to.
What and how?
I dont know.

I never thought that you exist.
I've done enough damage last time.
Please let me redeem myself this time 'round.

I love you.